So usually I really enjoy the holidays. I get out all my 1970's Christmas decorations that my mom didn't want, and I inherited. I enjoy the colored lights and always will. White is boring. I am not boring. Some people say they are classy. They just don't remember their childhood. Too bad for them. I also light the occasional festive candle. However, this was not the case this year. This was the longest, beat down of a holiday season I have ever had. And it has 1 more freaking day left. If I could have fast forwarded through the end of this year, I would have. If I could stop myself from the instant flare up of tears, I would have. Note to self: inquire about removing tear ducts in the new year.
There are several reasons of the holiday beat down, just to name a few:
TOP 5 BEAT DOWN LIST!
1) I am broke from traveling. Yes, I realize I did this on my own free will, but the let down of the debt and no new trips planned is a beat down.
2) I am single again. Story of my life. BIGGEST BEAT DOWN EVER.
3) All commercials on tv are from Zales or another diamond jewerly store that is about to go out of business. Yes, I know half of America is getting engaged. Good for them. I continue my spinster life. SIDEBAR: My mom did buy me diamond earrings, just because she said I deserved them. My mom is cool, she knew I needed them even though I would never ask for them. Good gesture mom. Here, Here!
4) I ate to much. Beat down of having to go to the gym, and realize my eating was also self-induced and now I should be doing 2 a days.
5) Holiday parties. Everyone is cheery, happy and can't wait to ask about the X, don't worry, they don't know yet that he is the X, which only makes it more of a beat down.
I only made a top 5, a few weeks ago, it could have been the top 20.
Stay tuned...
My friend, I too would have fast forwarded this whole year. Though there has been some good, there was some really freaking bad, too. Please believe that if I could get through all the horrible stuff that happened these past 14 months, then you can too. As much as I hate to say it, everything happens for a reason. That's what I keep telling myself, anyway. Happy New Year to you, Lady Di. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is me giving you a big hug. It doesn't negate any of the beat-down-ed-ness of your holiday season, I know. But hopefully it will remind you that you are loved, and having you in my life (and I KNOW the rest of the gang feels the same way) is a blessing. And your mom rocks.
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ReplyDeleteI am sad to hear things are stinking for you right now. I am imagining us sitting on your couch, drinking wine, bitching about life, then drinking more wine. I agree with what Jenny said! No one else I know can make me laugh when I am dying on mile 20, seriously! Wear those earrings proudly. You do deserve them! Moms always know how to make things feel a little better, huh?
Miss you!